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原文发表在一本香港杂志上,是中文的,
谁有的话,把原文拿过来.
Translated from: Music Rock Feb. Issue
Yoshiki and Some Things about Him
~Everybody related to me has changed. Now I am
even scared of my own action.
Dec. 31st 97 was the last concert before X Japan's
disbandment. May 2nd 98 came the death of hide.
Being the leader of X Japan and known as the most
determined artist in J-rock, after going through all
these painful strikes, Yoshiki has kept silence for a
long while.
Ever since his debut, he has produced millions
of heartfelt melodies, which have warm many fans'
hearts and have brought him satisfaction that deserves
pride. His talent is not only limited in Japan.
Applauses can be heard all over Asia, and he is
agressively planning for his major debut in US.
We all believe that Yoshiki will gain a tight
position on the international stage in the short
future, becoming an international rock star. Yet, the
present Yoshiki is standing still without any
movement. His heart seems to be cooled by ice, not
willing to get close to anybody. This is because his
friendship with his childhood friend,Toshi, had come
to an end, while his close friend, hide, had also left
the world.
Nevertheless, the miserable and puzzled Yoshiki
never gives up music. He has put his hateful and
grateful past together, preparing himself to take
another step towards future.
Yoshiki takes time from the gazing past to the
future...this is how his interview begins.
Yoshiki's rock spirit has shown fully within
this interview. While he took this interview frankly
and honestly, even though he, who has a very kind
and determined heart, has welled his eyes with tears
under his shades, and his voice kept shivering in
agony, all these expressions are honorable.
--- You haven't met Japan's fans for quite a long
while.
Y: Yes, this time I mainly came back to make a
decision on whether doing the "hide memorial concert".
Also, I have to make arrangements with LABEL's staff.
For example, when to have meetings with
artists. Of course, I will also meet my old friends
and staff. Meanwhile, I am also producing for some
new artists. Upon my own recording company, there
are still a lot to be solved. Coincidentally, I will
be free from my contract soon. A lot of people have
been approaching me for contracts lately, so I will
have discussions with those people too.
--- Sounds really busy!
Y: There are still somethine else, but I can't
remember at the moment.
--- Isn't this a really heavy amount of work?
Y: No, I think I can manage.
--- You want to finish all these work during this
short stay?
Y: Yes. I know it sounds almost impossible, but I
need to get back to LA as soon as possible.
--- I don't think you will be able to leave on
time.
Y: If this is really so, then I guess I have to
stay for a few more days!
~Now I can't even see hide's picture.
--- About hide's concert, I have heard that you are
going to make announcement on cancelling it in
February.
Y: Yes. After considering several aspects, we
decided to cancel it. Frankly, there aren't any
problems in concert's preparations or performers'
schedules. It's mainly because my heart still
hurts. Ever since hide's pass in 98, I haven't
accepted any interviews. I don't even understand why?
In hide's funeral, the fans were all very sad
and painful. Some of them even cried out loud. Being
the leader of X, I figured I had to say something
to them when I saw that situation. So I just went
in front of them with an empty brain and said, "Please
stay calm!"
After the funeral, I returned to LA. As soon
as I became a little more chilled out, I realized that
I was the least calm person. I asked myself
what was i doing? I couldn't do anything, and I
felt if I am responsible for hide's death. If hide
had never met me, things wouldn't have turned out his
way. I thought of lotz of things, eg. X Japan's
past, and what I should do etc...
--- Till now, you are still thinking about hide?
Y: Yes. When hide was alive, I have really
thought seriously about forming another X Japan. I
told him once that "2000 is coming soon~ we gotta do
something!" Too bad we were both very busy
after......
During the time when I have not yet gone hide's
incident, I heard Toshi's news. Since i was still in
LA then, I don't know the details. I don't
understand why Toshi is doing what he does. I
only feel afraid. Everybody related to me has all
changed. Therefore, the thought of meeting new people
or having new starts reminds me only of another
melancholy end. The present me is even scared of my
own action, so practically I can't do anything.
--- So you must not have any work now?
Y: No. I have continued with my work all this
time. Sorry to confuse you, but producing for LABEL's
artists doesn't matter. For example, deciding
about artists' activities, directions, contents of
lyrics etc...I trust doing all these won't leave me
anytime to think about my own work. I won't think
about questions like "what I would become?" or "what
will X's future be like?" anymore. I only want to
live in a place that's totally different from
the past, to become a person who's totally different
from the past. Thus, I made myself more busy
intentionally.
--- How many bands are you producing at a time?
Y: 8 to 10. I have to control 3 to 4 of them in
the Studio a day, so everyday fires off. I thought
this kind of life will cool me down, but it's
no use after all. Everytime I think of hide, I feel
very afraid. Even a look at his photos hurts my
heart. I can't see any of hide's photos, X's
videos, X's indies documents. Therefore returning
to Japan with such state of mind, I feel more chaotic
than ever.
--- When do you think you can calm down?
Y: I have to thank my fans for being able to come
back this time. I will work hard from now on. After
hide's incident, my conditions and state of
mind are not yet cured. I have lost confidence
about myself. I don't want to be involved with work
on stage anymore. Frankly, I have thought about
"isn't being just a composer better?". If I start
working on stage again, or cooporate with other
people, I really don't know whether it's good or not.
--- You, who are sadder than anyone else, had told
fans words in hide's funeral that encouraged them to
stand on their feet again. A lot of fans took their
miseries as power and motivation to move on, to
continue what hide had left. They have changed
because of your words.
Y: Really? Tracing back, I don't even understand
why I said what I said. The fact is, I can't even
fully accept hide's death till now. But I felt I
am saved too when I heard you saying that fans stand
back up on their feet because of my words.
--- This is the fact. As you are not yet over with
your pain, don't you think your fans will be very
shocked if they find out you are giving up your
work on stage?
Y: I don't know... about the memorial concert, I
have made a lot of considerations. I supposed if I
were hide, I rather not having a memorial concert for
myself. I can't explain this, but this is what I
believe. Up till now, I still don't know I should go
towards which direction. I don't know what my future
will be like. Even though my head is very awake and
clear, my heart is not.
~End~
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